Imagine a life without Spasticity...My Dream

Written by Linda Furiate (2003)

 

 

Let it stop. The movement. I wish to be still.

Eight years have passed since I first experienced the presence of constant movement in my neck and head causing my whole body to feel the reverberating effects of non-stop motion. I continuously feel the movement, the pain and the unending strain that it places on my weakened self. It is like living on a roller coaster that never comes to a halt; although I have been ready to get off this unbearable ride for many years.

At night as I rock myself to sleep to disguise the movement and I am finally able to fall asleep. My slumber gives way to pleasant dreams. Visions of me moving freely and at my own will; controlling when I move and mostly when I am still.

I long for this feeling while I am awake. Asleep, I dream of stillness. Awake, I wish to make my dream, my reality.

Focus.

Focus on tomorrow. Focus on my dream. I know I was not meant to live my life this way. I want the body I had before I developed dystonia. I need to be still.

I am unable to turn back time. I am not willing to turn it back. I am not willing to give back what dystonia has given me. I wish to embrace the message sent to me through my dystonia. I desire to step into my future without spasticity as I carry forth the compassion, the strength, the friendships and the empowerment dystonia has blessed upon me.

I Dream. I Hope. I envision. I Believe. All the while, I am working hard, so incredibly hard, to eliminate my dystonic symptoms.

With time and patience - My dream has come true!

Today I am nearly 100% symptom free of dystonia. I can S.T.E.P. forward into my future with grace and be in command of my own movement.

Learn to live your dream.